Hi Demonseed
I am on 100mls of Methadone per day, similar to you, it's evil stuff! I wish I had NEVER heard of it to tell you the truth, it stays in your system longer the Heroin (I am sure you know) it's harder to come off than Heroin, so why they prescribe it in the first place is beyond me.
I am waiting to go into detox myself to try to come off it! I am scared sh*t* to be honest. I can really understand where you are coming from though, I wouldn't touch morpine or the others you mentioned though because that would be a backward step wouldn't it? Personally what I did do (but you mustn't) was to try Crack Cocaine! my head was that far flying in the clouds the I found I dcidn't need methadone at all while I was on Crack, weird isn't it? But what I do now is have a spliff instead (weed) If I can manage to get a couple of spliffs down me before I take my Meth then I don't need it! The weed chills me out, I don't get wound up worrying about feeling sh*t*, 'cause I don't! The only time I need to take the Meth is either when I stop smoking a spliff or when my head tells me I am going to start withdrawing if I don't get some Methadone down my throat. Methadone seeps into your bones I am sure, It takes much longer to leave your system than Heroin does as you know, but I also think a lot of it is in the mind.
If I start thinking about withdrawing then I will bloody start withdrawing!! mad innit? I don't know if you have a weed or not, or what your people think of it (but it isn't as bad as Meth!). But if you are even thinking of Morphine, then before you go that far try a bit of grass, see what you think. It chills me so maybe it would do the same for you, who knows? I would love to know what you think please let me know.
Am I talkin' crap or what?
Best wishes
Freddy08
